I first decided to start writing to get back into the groove of it all.

Then Phishman Died.

I was so ready but not so ready all at the same time. It seemed that the mourning was not enough. I feel weird being here and knowing he is not. So I have sat unable to write for weeks now. Tonight it seemd like time to stop sitting. I feel Me coming back, I am done saying good bye cataloging my memories and letting go.

So then what to write about, the only thing that seems to be of concern lately is how much to write on Me as not only a BBW, but a Pro and Lifestyle Domina? I want to embrace myself but just how much of myself. I feel so alive and scared at the same time. I know I have the strength within to changes minds and mold new ideals. Question is how to I get it outta my head and here so all can read. Maybe thats it

” COME ONE COME ALL AND WITNESS THE GREATEST STRUGGLE THE WORLD HAS EVER KNOWN!! WOMAN VS.HER OWN BRAIN! STEP RIGHT UP LADIES AND GENTS STEP RIGHT UP!